My Lovely Brother

Hey, I miss you...
It feels like yesterday I just saw you.

Is it a dream??
Or it just me playing with a box of imagination..

Almost a year I don't see you smile
And it feels like a million years without water.

We used to doing stupid things together,
laugh untill our stomach burst,
making fun of each other..

...now I'm here, holding a beautiful picture of you
That's how I polish this little thing in me called heart.

It hurts more when I'm trying to lock this,
put a thick wall, so they can't see what inside.

If I can turn back the time....
...no, I can't do that.

But if I do,
the first thing I do when I wake up is...
is to keep awake,
so I don't miss any second just too see your face,
to say that I really miss you,
doing anything just to see your smile....

...but I can't.

Then a little voice speak to me.
He said that you're doing okay there,
you find anything that you've been looking for,
there are a lot of people that keep you safe,
holding you like a cotton,
hearing every whisper you share.

That's when I know that you never leave.
I just can't see you.
But you just keep getting closer,
closer to me that we've never been.

And I know,
I know you'll always be my lovely brother
my angel  that shine through everything.

And forgetting you is one thing that I would do if people can live without oxygen...
..hmm.. that will be NEVER....

~Dedicated to my lovely Brother~

-Judith Novianty-